if i wrote you a note;

if i wrote you a note,
i would tell you how i really feel.
i wouldn’t hide it anymore,
pretending that this all ain’t real.

i want you to know firstly, that i’ve always treasured our friendship.
despite the good times and the horrible bitchy sessions.

you were a good friend,
always there to help me, if you could.
and you never failed to do the silliest things that just at times,
made me wonder if you were truely human.

times past, people change.
you show me how brittle our friendship is,
time after time.

you did things behind my back,
you never thought i’d find out.
you would stab me,
despite knowing that i could see where the knife was heading.

but i still forgave you and never questioned our friendship.

everytime some shit happens,
i’ve still stuck with you.
(or at least, i try my best to)

yet you treat me like a replaceable little doll.
there at your beck and call.
time after time, you’d do something ridiculous and yet,
i’d still forgive you.

trying to talk you into changing back into the girl i once knew,
was harder then i had ever expected.
it made our friendship strained and O levels just made it worse.
i didn’t want to be the one who turned on you.
i didn’t want to see you drown.

i wish i could erase the bad memories,
but they  just still continue to linger.

you know i still love you girl,
despite our ups and downs.
i just hope that you’ve changed for the better.
and that, i hope i’ve never let you down.

THE PAST! (:

I am going to blog about something random.
(this is because i am kinda brain dead right now)

The topic shall be… what i miss the MOSTEST ABOUT 2008!
okay, many things happened last year, like you know.
SINGFEST! DDDDD

i love singfest to the max! (: it was a great cause it was like a jam-packed concert with many great artists!
(ESPECIALLY PANIC AT THE DISCO, ONE REPUBLIC& JASON MRAZ!)
It was the best. day. of. my. life for that year, without a doubt!

despite the scorching sun, dehydration, and plenty of sweaty people pushing around.
it was still very much worth it. (:

the lights, the sounds, the actions.
it was so cool, something that i have never experienced before.
the sound of hundreds of crazy fans, singing to the songs played by their favorite artists.
and even though you dont know the people next to you at times, it still feels like your bonded through music.
you could easily strike up a conversation and you need not worry about where the conversation is heading to because we all ultimately know that it would be something related to the artist that is coming on next/the one that just ended.

though i still do think that the price for the tickets were high, i still feel that it was worth every penny.
the fact that you’ll be able to capture at least a 45 min worth performance from so many artists.
it is making use of every dollar you spent on the ticket.

true, the items there could be a little pricy, like the cost of bottled water, BUT hey! we’re buying FIGI water!
a bottle, naturally costs up to $3. but then you go and ask yourself, why cant they use ice mountain.
obviously a redundant question, because the people there are probably think that FIGI water is tons better.

however, i regret not staying for the entire concert.
you might think im a complete idiot for not staying, but yes. i left after the Jason Mraz set.
which meant that i missed out on the “highlight” of Singfest, which was the Pussycat Dolls and Alicia Keys.

both my bestfriend and i were extremely exhausted and it was getting very crowded. but we were fully contented to have seen the artists that were the reasons why we came for it in the first place. so everything was so worth it.
(ironically, it is harder to get out from where you are concert area, then to squeeze your way through to the front)

i hope i get the chance to go for this year’s Singfest as well, depending on the line up,
but i wouldn’t want to miss it, at all!

HOW CAN?!?!

OKAY, THIS IS A RANDOM POST, AND I HOPE* THAT IT IS ACCEPTABLE (:

but i mean, seriously! SERIOUSLY!
how can ADAM LAMBERT not win AMERICAN IDOL?!

okay, lets start from the very beginning.

from his auditions – clearly he had amazing talent and he definitely had much potential.

from the rounds in Hollywood – his performances during the singles and groups made it obvious
why he should be in this show. his PROMISE to make things different was shown from the beginning.
in my opinion, that kind of goal-settings made him stand out. the promise. the deliverance.
it made him a true artist even before entering the “competition” proper.

during the top 12 performances,
he has ALWAYS without a doubt, performed something that was extremely different from what it was.
and he ALWAYS made it his own, he kept to his word and the judges were completely stunned at times, which is rare.
such talent like Adam’s does not come by very often, and thus i find that he was a very deserving winner.

although i cannot disagree that Kris put on a great performance during the finals, but i find that he was not as consistent during the idol weeks. he had fluctuating performances and thus i found that Adam deserved the title more.

OH WELL, I’m sure Adam’s albums will sell out like hotcakes anyway, like all other runner-up’s like Chris Daughtry and David Archuleta. so i guess I’m not that bummed out after all.
(although i still am.. deep down inside)

but on a lighter note, after a while lot of rumblings, i went to catch ANGELS AND DEMONS!

okay, if you have read the book, you’ll know that it is really awesome and it is very entertaining.
and usually, the movies are no comparison from the books, but this time, i beg to differ.

having read the book plenty of times already, i find that this movie very just like how the book shows it.
this time, it becomes clearer, as the pictures and figurines that you are can only imagine in the book are present in real life, and you’ll get an even clearer understanding of the book.

it truely is a show worth watching! SO

a silver celebration

blog about something personal, hmm…

since i cant think of anything, i seem to be having a serious case of mental blockage.
(i’ll just post about something that happened in the past week.) 

well, my parents celebrated their silver wedding anniversary on saturday, along with the company of family (:
it was a pleasant surprise for my mum, at least, since my dad was planning it all week long.
with the help of my aunt, of course.
she helped to call up all the relatives, get the flowers and organize the plans for the evening.
it wasnt a real big, grand affair, but it was the thought that mattered. 

i seldom see my dad spend so much effort on something for my mother,
i mean, yeah, he gets her gifts now and then, and always pays for her shopping.
but you hardly get a chance to see them “back in love” in that sense.

they hardly celebrate it togther, since my brother and i were borned.
it was always a family of four affair, (in which my brother and i got quite tired off)
you know, the whole.. “alamak, you should celebrate it on your own..” kind of replies 
but still, we did whatever made them happy.

it’s nice to have a change in the usual routine of all of us being together,
and it was quite refreshing for them to have their own “dating” time once again.

well, i wish them well, and plenty more years ahead spent with each other.
and hopefully, i’ll celebrate their 50th wedding anniversary with them
just like what the family did with my grandparents. (:

it does kind of make you wonder how your marriage in the future is going to be like.
doesn’t it? (:

cos your hot and your cold,
your yes and your no.

this song’s been ringing in my head over and over again.
maybe it’s primarily just due to me thinking way too much as usual.
it’s not my fault that i am just a little (too) over conscious about myself.

but anyway, on a lighter note.
we’ve got a CATS outing tmrw to the red dot museum!
although i’ve got no clue about what that place has.
it should be fun, learn something new. (:

( HELLO TO WEEK3! )

the first

okay, so im probably the last person in class to actually post something here.
but its alright, right? (:

the first week of school has been pretty interesting,
getting to know people in class and trying to create bonds.
meeting new friends, as well as catching up with old ones.

everything’s going on well, till the assignments start rolling in perharps.
gee – how things come to an end so quickly.

the start of the 5 month holiday just ended, like that.
in the blink of an eye so much time has passed by.
although i think i have wasted a lot of time doing practically nothing constructive
yet how i wish it wouldn’t end.

call me a bum, but its the truth! (:

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